Post by paulmurdoch1975 on Jan 21, 2012 0:36:48 GMT
These are a few of my thoughts that’s been running through my head tonight .
Being spiritual to me is not all about seeing or hearing spirit .
That’s just the tip of the iceberg not everyone does it that way .
There's many ways to be in contact with spirit its all a big thing for people to say I'm a medium or a psychic .
For me yes Ive seen and herd spirit I get things through from time to time half the time I don’t realize I'm doing it but behind all that lies one important thing I had (and I'm still doing this ) to find myself .
Our life's seem to be one big roller coaster of a ride .
It all started for me as a kid with astral travel I traveled to a friends house and could see exactly what they was doing .
I told my friend the next day what I had seen and who was in each room he couldn't believe it he thought I had a camera in there lol .
That didn’t last forever as I got older things stopped like that and I began to see spirit and hear my name called and again when I reached 15 roughly it stopped but by then I was getting in trouble like a normal teenager.
From the age of 15 to 25 I got little things through like seeing a clock come down the wall slowly and not even making a noise as it hit tiles on the floor the time of 2222 used to stand out to me regular .
But I had so much happening around me with having 3 kids at the time trying to get work and still getting in trouble not even knowing who I still was that nothing really came from spirit to the age of 31 .
I had so many things happen in my life some real scary things to that life throws at you .
Many lessons in life I had to take ile say a few I lost a child .
I had a sawn off shot Gun put to my head and survived.
I had a man come at me with a sword and I survived .
I had moved 12 times since I was 15 as that’s when I left mum & dads .
Ive been through many hostels at the age of 15 before getting a council place at 17 .
So now Ive got to 31 at that stage I was thinking to myself whats this all about I had been married to my wife for 6 years we had a few kids then that’s with my other 3 from a previous relationship .
I started to think Paul you need to sort your self out.
Things was happening that had been happening time and time again in my life and I thought I really don’t need this so I started to do things opposite to what I would normally do like walking away from fights talking to people helping them feeling these new feelings I started to try to drop my barriers .
Then so much happened that’s when I started to see and here things again .
For a year I had been bombarded with these voices and seeing different spirits plus seeing visions it got in the way of my marriage
I was fixated with this new thing that was happening to me it got to the stage where the wife gave me an ultimatum her or the spiritual stuff .
I tried to give it up but I couldn't I just found out from a good friend of mine how to close down so no spirit could come through to me so anytime I felt something I would just close down .
In that time I done nothing but research on things I learned so much and gathered so much info that a year later I thought I wonder if I still got it as nothing had come in a long time .
So I opened up nothing was the same it was more visions inside my head rather than out side in our world .
Meanwhile me as a person I was starting to want to help people I was wanting to make a difference I was making more of an effort with myself .
Now up to my age now of 36 I have had my wake up call it was time to get to know this new me .
Ive cried Ive laughed I have found out what it means to lose someone Ive known happiness / sadness/ feeling alone / feeling love / giving love / unconditional love / I have faced demons old karma's / I can now look in the mirror and see me and much much more .
I'm not the same person I was at 25 I have had to let my barriers down that was the hardest thing for me to do getting rid of my ego as I was the big I am .
I thought I was the business I was only hiding behind a mask the real me is here now and is here to stay .
What I'm really trying to say throughout this post is that you can not start a true spiritual path on ego .
You must find yourself the true you.
you must set a balance in your life which in turn means turn your life around if somethings not right in your life simply change it you move on.
I left all my old friends as they wasn’t part of my life anymore .
I become a man I wasn’t truly ready for my spiritual path until now so if anyone thinks that its all seeing ghosts and talking to them its far from it
Any one who has the ability to have contact in any way has earned it and I respect them for it as I know how hard Ive worked at it
How has your spiritual path changed your life .
Hugs & Blessings .
AngelGabriel
Being spiritual to me is not all about seeing or hearing spirit .
That’s just the tip of the iceberg not everyone does it that way .
There's many ways to be in contact with spirit its all a big thing for people to say I'm a medium or a psychic .
For me yes Ive seen and herd spirit I get things through from time to time half the time I don’t realize I'm doing it but behind all that lies one important thing I had (and I'm still doing this ) to find myself .
Our life's seem to be one big roller coaster of a ride .
It all started for me as a kid with astral travel I traveled to a friends house and could see exactly what they was doing .
I told my friend the next day what I had seen and who was in each room he couldn't believe it he thought I had a camera in there lol .
That didn’t last forever as I got older things stopped like that and I began to see spirit and hear my name called and again when I reached 15 roughly it stopped but by then I was getting in trouble like a normal teenager.
From the age of 15 to 25 I got little things through like seeing a clock come down the wall slowly and not even making a noise as it hit tiles on the floor the time of 2222 used to stand out to me regular .
But I had so much happening around me with having 3 kids at the time trying to get work and still getting in trouble not even knowing who I still was that nothing really came from spirit to the age of 31 .
I had so many things happen in my life some real scary things to that life throws at you .
Many lessons in life I had to take ile say a few I lost a child .
I had a sawn off shot Gun put to my head and survived.
I had a man come at me with a sword and I survived .
I had moved 12 times since I was 15 as that’s when I left mum & dads .
Ive been through many hostels at the age of 15 before getting a council place at 17 .
So now Ive got to 31 at that stage I was thinking to myself whats this all about I had been married to my wife for 6 years we had a few kids then that’s with my other 3 from a previous relationship .
I started to think Paul you need to sort your self out.
Things was happening that had been happening time and time again in my life and I thought I really don’t need this so I started to do things opposite to what I would normally do like walking away from fights talking to people helping them feeling these new feelings I started to try to drop my barriers .
Then so much happened that’s when I started to see and here things again .
For a year I had been bombarded with these voices and seeing different spirits plus seeing visions it got in the way of my marriage
I was fixated with this new thing that was happening to me it got to the stage where the wife gave me an ultimatum her or the spiritual stuff .
I tried to give it up but I couldn't I just found out from a good friend of mine how to close down so no spirit could come through to me so anytime I felt something I would just close down .
In that time I done nothing but research on things I learned so much and gathered so much info that a year later I thought I wonder if I still got it as nothing had come in a long time .
So I opened up nothing was the same it was more visions inside my head rather than out side in our world .
Meanwhile me as a person I was starting to want to help people I was wanting to make a difference I was making more of an effort with myself .
Now up to my age now of 36 I have had my wake up call it was time to get to know this new me .
Ive cried Ive laughed I have found out what it means to lose someone Ive known happiness / sadness/ feeling alone / feeling love / giving love / unconditional love / I have faced demons old karma's / I can now look in the mirror and see me and much much more .
I'm not the same person I was at 25 I have had to let my barriers down that was the hardest thing for me to do getting rid of my ego as I was the big I am .
I thought I was the business I was only hiding behind a mask the real me is here now and is here to stay .
What I'm really trying to say throughout this post is that you can not start a true spiritual path on ego .
You must find yourself the true you.
you must set a balance in your life which in turn means turn your life around if somethings not right in your life simply change it you move on.
I left all my old friends as they wasn’t part of my life anymore .
I become a man I wasn’t truly ready for my spiritual path until now so if anyone thinks that its all seeing ghosts and talking to them its far from it
Any one who has the ability to have contact in any way has earned it and I respect them for it as I know how hard Ive worked at it
How has your spiritual path changed your life .
Hugs & Blessings .
AngelGabriel
so again my husband said it was because i was ill with depression so im now 39 and still am on medication for depression but just to let you no between the second baby that was eight years before i had my third baby i kept alot of my experiences to myself because my husband does not believe in my experiences i have, as he is not a believer so when i came across this site i was totally thankful because now i can share alot ,and not to keep things in hope you understand what i have written love to you xx angel xx