Post by STORMDANCER on Dec 6, 2011 21:46:18 GMT
I thought I would do a post today about some of the topics I have been discussing with my guide, and somethings I didn't quite understand before. I would like to say before I start that if you have not read any of my other posts on the spirituality and faith board..Some of the things will make total sense but without reading my other posts some things will make no sense at all. I just though I had better say that to new commers.
On my other posts a lot of the things I talked about were to do with re-awakening to the oneness of which we are all a part of...The universe...and how we are each a part of this oneness, and that oneness in the highest sense is who we really are beyond time and space. One of the things that I , growing up did not understand, that has been clarified to me, that I have not talked about yet is the difference between needs and wants and addictions, because unfortunately , I have all three of those and I am sure we all do.
Now the needs and the wants are not unfortunate actually remember that if you go back to some of my posts, consciousness it's desire, the desire of the essence, whatever it is you like to define the universe as..god, consciousness, the force...whatever you want to call it....knows that it exists, but it is in a never ending process of self discovery and discovering what it means to exist.The universe knows that 'I am' ..it says I am but what the hell am I ? The universe doesn't know what it is , and that's a good thing because it can become all things and experience all things..that's where wants come into play and so do needs.
One of the things that I have been discussing with my guide is how wants are actually a good thing. If you have ever actually wanted something in your life, it doesn't matter what it is..whatever you want is like an inner need to fulfill something, to have something, to be something or become something. What is going on actually is that , that is how the universe is expressing it's desires to create through you. Through your wants, and a lot of the time we confuse our needs with our wants and we will say.......' we need something'...when in essence what's really happening is that we are confusing the fact with we want it, to the point that now we think we need it. The truth is we don't need anything...you don't even need air...I know that sounds stupid but you don't need anything...I know for a fact that when you die you continue to go on...you don't need anything to exist...your going to exist. Now you might need certain things to keep the form that you are in right now, to maintain the person that you see yourself as, but then again those are wants because it is your souls desire to express itself through who you are right now.
So we confuse often at times, needs with wants, but the truth is that we don't need anything, but we want to experience everything. Here is something that came to me I guess through my guide, we were talking about this and he explained that, so many times we decide that something is bad, and for me growing up and going to a christian school, their were a lot of things I was taught were ' bad ' ...That I was not supposed to do, or not supposed to desire and so what I did as a child/young adult, growing up was to push them away...I pushed those wants away and I pretended I didn't want them....and I am going to leave that up to your imagination because you know what a lot of christians would say.....'god doesn't want you to have this.....this will make you evil, or this desire makes you unworthy or sinful' ....so what we do is we push them away...we push those wants away and often we repress them and guess what?........They never go away, they just keep comming back, they keep comming back, again and again...and we keep pushing them away again and again and again.
Now there is something that is going on here and we may say that there are a lot of things that we want that might be bad for other people, and that is true too. There are things that you don't want to desire that could infringe upon another person and there are things that we want that might be bad for other people, and that is true too. There are things that you don't want to desire that could infringe upon another person and are things that you don't want to desire that could infringe upon another person and their path, but if that person is consensual and it is a mutual want then if you judge it to be wrong, then that is the judgement you have made...and that is one thing religions do....they push away wants, those natural wants that human beings have, and they call them evil and then leave us in a continuous state of wanting, and feeling unworthy because we want it...and that's not how the universe progresses...see what happens is...for example..If you want a certain kind of food, and you crave it and you crave it..so you decide..'I don't want to have it' so you push the craving away....well it's going to keep comming back to you...but what happens if you give into it?.... You go and you have a huge bowl of icecream.......What happens if you still want some more?..Well now you are becomming a glutton, but that is still a judgement..That is a judgement you have made...evidently there still is a want that needs satisfied, so you go and have more...and pretty soon you get sick of it, you don't want it anymore, and that is exactly how the universe works. The universe desires to express itself through you, through each of us because we are all components, we are each part of this beautiful whole...and this is how god is discovering what it means to exist. Without wants and desires their would be no creation what so ever. The universe would be static and life would be basically joy less and that's not why we are here either.
But my point is the more you push something away..you are saying you don't want it....you are lying to yourself.....because you do want it! And you are pushing it away because of a judgement....Now again i want to say though just to clarify this.....That doesn't mean you want to infringe on other peoples journeys, that's not what this is all about, but as I said if someone else has mutual wants and it's not going to hurt anybody else then it's your judgement that pushes it away and says it is bad..The problem is you are going to keep having that want until it is satisfied.
One thing I have learned too is that giving into desires and wants does not hinder the evolution of your soul what so ever. In the Buddhists teachings there is a teaching called the 'middle path' and in the Quabalah it is 'the middle pillar' and it goes straight up, it goes straight back to the source. There are a lot of people, mystics etc who follow that path of renunciation ...renouncing all wants...and they evolve very fast, they quickly merge into the sense of universal consciousness and becoming aware of their 'oneness' with everything. In Hinduism and the yogi philosophy they call it Samadhi or in Buddhism it is called Nirvana...They reach that goal very fast, it is almost like they are racing there..racing to get back to their awareness of oneness with the universe. That awareness is going to happen to you regardless, and one thing I have learned too is that the process of evolution is not a race. We didn't merge ourselves into forgetfulness and seperation to just race back to oneness, that is not the purpose of it..We are here to experience and for god, that is within all of us, life, the universe, what I call 'god', to experience what it means to exist.
Now what it means to exist entails everything that makes you happy, everything that makes you depressed, everything that makes you feel shamed, everything that makes you feel prideful, everything that makes you feel angry, everything that gives you forgiveness, everything that gives you faith....It is not just all good things, we are here to experience everything and unfortunately a lot of things hurt, but that is why we are here...we are here to experience that. If god never understood what shame was then god would not totally know gods own self...so when you are feeling all these different things, just be aware of wants, needs,and what you are pushing away. One thing that my guide........I am going to digress slightly for a moment...lol...I have to tell you my guide has been helping me a lot, more than ever I realised before with the posts I have made previously..They were brought to me through my guide and here was I arrogant enough to suppose that I was just learning the stuff on my own. Now that I have a clear communication with my guide, I am realising just how far my guide has been helping me on my path, and anyway back to what i was saying...my guide wanted to let me know that it is ok to want something. If you want something , as long as it doesn't infringe upon the rights of another ...and as long as it is not injuring another or hurting them purposely , without their permission....that is what the universe is desiring to express itself through you, and you are going to keep wanting until it is fulfilled and until you move on.
As we progress as souls what happens basically is our wants change...The things that you may want right now, food, sex, money, feeling superior maybe to others...All of these things that you want to feel, importance...you are going to strive to achieve them and you are going to have some hang ups along the way, but eventually you know you are going to feel all those things, and you are going to feel them to the point when you realise that's not what you want anymore...and you are going to move on...It's like a child laying aside playschool toys...and you know if the child keeps pushing the toys away, because he is not 'supposed' to be playing with them because they are 'bad'..well he/she is never going to out grow them...In order to out grow your toys, you have to play with them, and if you have to play with them for a long time, then play with them, but you are going to outgrow them....You don't outgrow things repressing them.
There are different paths, there is the path that most westerners take and it might be a lot slower in re-awakening to your oneness with your higher self, and with the universe and with everything within and around you...it is a lot slower, but you know what, god experiences a lot more through that path. God experiences everything through that path of giving god what god desires through you, and then out growing it. Now you are going to see two different philosophies if you study eastern cultures and western cultures. The Eastern cultures tell you to repress it , don't eat meat, don't have sex....I love Ghandi, I have read a lot about him, but Ghandi only had sex once a year and that was with his wife and it was to have a child and that was it....I can't live that way...( although starting to feel a lot like i want to lol)....Or could I? The thing is by this Ghandi is not balanced..I dont want to step on easterners but I have to tell you Ghandi was a great philosopher and a great teacher and there are many like him....but Ghandi bless his heart was not balanced, he is not balanced at all..infact..I sometimes wonder if people like Ghandi later reincarnate as maybe a lapdancer or something like that!!!!!! I don't know just a thought....See I am blabbering again!
You have to face everything you cannot repress, repress, repress...and you will outgrow your toys, it is inevitable. You are not going to be stuck in playschool. The universe doesn't work that way. You will feel stuck and you will feel shamed if you repress the things that the universe is desiring to express itself through you as....so these were all new thoughts for me but I can see it now.
There is a difference between wants, needs and addictions...You could go over board and say everyone is an addiction...our job is to get rid of any want because we are going to call all wants addictions...That is not true..That's totally just throwing the baby out with the bath water......But their are somethings that you don't really want, but you can't put them down because it's an addiction...and one of those things is....for me..I am ashamed to admit it, you would probably not think this from me but their have been times in my life when I became very stressed out , or I am going through a depression or something like that....I smoke....bet you can't believe that eh!!!! I smoke..and you know I will pick up cigarettes for a month , one time I picked it up for about 3 months..I did that a couple of times..and then I will just push them aside. I don't want it anymore, I start feeling good..I don't want it anymore..and it just kind of slips away as if i didn't desire it..infact when I try to stop smoking and the times when I have tried, I can't do it, it's like I can't do it I have to buy a patch and then I am pushing away something that I really want....But what inevitably happens is as you becaome happy again....you don't want it..you out grow it...and that is something that I hopefully have outgrown for good..I am still working on it right now.
These are things I am trying to teach you is that..say if you push away cigarettes you are going to find out after a few days that you really didn't want it in the frst place...It only takes a few days and you don't want it...and that is because their was some kind of chemical reaction going on in your body..Now that's an addction..People can be addicted to sex too, because sex is a chemical reaction as well....and I am going to give you my own philosophy on an addiction and I could be wrong and maybe my guide will straighten me out later...But I really think an addiction is a problem when it begins to disrupt your life, take away from the beauty of your life..and cigarettes can do that because they will shorten your life..so that's an addiction..so is drinking, sex etc...But you would have to decide that for yourself..What's the life you desire to live? Addictions will creep in..any kind of addiction...Food, sex, drugs, alcohol....any kind of addiction will come in and it will overtake the life that you want to live..That's an addiction...Because the truth is the universe is trying to live a life through you..which may include all those things..( Not Drugs!!!)... it wants to enjoy sex, food, it wants you to enjoy exersize, it wants you to enjoy these things, but then people can start to form their whole entire life around one of those avenues, and loose purpose of their life and why they are here. To me that's an addiction.
So basically I know this is a bit long winded but I want to just recap by saying...Don't be ashamed of the things you want..you are a mirror reflection of the great cosmos and you are here to experience what it means to exist and nothing is bad unless you judge it to be so....and that's something jesus said...'nothing is bad unless you judge it to be so'..But in the reality..I don't know...Anyway I hope this might help somebody understand a bit more.
Storm x
On my other posts a lot of the things I talked about were to do with re-awakening to the oneness of which we are all a part of...The universe...and how we are each a part of this oneness, and that oneness in the highest sense is who we really are beyond time and space. One of the things that I , growing up did not understand, that has been clarified to me, that I have not talked about yet is the difference between needs and wants and addictions, because unfortunately , I have all three of those and I am sure we all do.
Now the needs and the wants are not unfortunate actually remember that if you go back to some of my posts, consciousness it's desire, the desire of the essence, whatever it is you like to define the universe as..god, consciousness, the force...whatever you want to call it....knows that it exists, but it is in a never ending process of self discovery and discovering what it means to exist.The universe knows that 'I am' ..it says I am but what the hell am I ? The universe doesn't know what it is , and that's a good thing because it can become all things and experience all things..that's where wants come into play and so do needs.
One of the things that I have been discussing with my guide is how wants are actually a good thing. If you have ever actually wanted something in your life, it doesn't matter what it is..whatever you want is like an inner need to fulfill something, to have something, to be something or become something. What is going on actually is that , that is how the universe is expressing it's desires to create through you. Through your wants, and a lot of the time we confuse our needs with our wants and we will say.......' we need something'...when in essence what's really happening is that we are confusing the fact with we want it, to the point that now we think we need it. The truth is we don't need anything...you don't even need air...I know that sounds stupid but you don't need anything...I know for a fact that when you die you continue to go on...you don't need anything to exist...your going to exist. Now you might need certain things to keep the form that you are in right now, to maintain the person that you see yourself as, but then again those are wants because it is your souls desire to express itself through who you are right now.
So we confuse often at times, needs with wants, but the truth is that we don't need anything, but we want to experience everything. Here is something that came to me I guess through my guide, we were talking about this and he explained that, so many times we decide that something is bad, and for me growing up and going to a christian school, their were a lot of things I was taught were ' bad ' ...That I was not supposed to do, or not supposed to desire and so what I did as a child/young adult, growing up was to push them away...I pushed those wants away and I pretended I didn't want them....and I am going to leave that up to your imagination because you know what a lot of christians would say.....'god doesn't want you to have this.....this will make you evil, or this desire makes you unworthy or sinful' ....so what we do is we push them away...we push those wants away and often we repress them and guess what?........They never go away, they just keep comming back, they keep comming back, again and again...and we keep pushing them away again and again and again.
Now there is something that is going on here and we may say that there are a lot of things that we want that might be bad for other people, and that is true too. There are things that you don't want to desire that could infringe upon another person and there are things that we want that might be bad for other people, and that is true too. There are things that you don't want to desire that could infringe upon another person and are things that you don't want to desire that could infringe upon another person and their path, but if that person is consensual and it is a mutual want then if you judge it to be wrong, then that is the judgement you have made...and that is one thing religions do....they push away wants, those natural wants that human beings have, and they call them evil and then leave us in a continuous state of wanting, and feeling unworthy because we want it...and that's not how the universe progresses...see what happens is...for example..If you want a certain kind of food, and you crave it and you crave it..so you decide..'I don't want to have it' so you push the craving away....well it's going to keep comming back to you...but what happens if you give into it?.... You go and you have a huge bowl of icecream.......What happens if you still want some more?..Well now you are becomming a glutton, but that is still a judgement..That is a judgement you have made...evidently there still is a want that needs satisfied, so you go and have more...and pretty soon you get sick of it, you don't want it anymore, and that is exactly how the universe works. The universe desires to express itself through you, through each of us because we are all components, we are each part of this beautiful whole...and this is how god is discovering what it means to exist. Without wants and desires their would be no creation what so ever. The universe would be static and life would be basically joy less and that's not why we are here either.
But my point is the more you push something away..you are saying you don't want it....you are lying to yourself.....because you do want it! And you are pushing it away because of a judgement....Now again i want to say though just to clarify this.....That doesn't mean you want to infringe on other peoples journeys, that's not what this is all about, but as I said if someone else has mutual wants and it's not going to hurt anybody else then it's your judgement that pushes it away and says it is bad..The problem is you are going to keep having that want until it is satisfied.
One thing I have learned too is that giving into desires and wants does not hinder the evolution of your soul what so ever. In the Buddhists teachings there is a teaching called the 'middle path' and in the Quabalah it is 'the middle pillar' and it goes straight up, it goes straight back to the source. There are a lot of people, mystics etc who follow that path of renunciation ...renouncing all wants...and they evolve very fast, they quickly merge into the sense of universal consciousness and becoming aware of their 'oneness' with everything. In Hinduism and the yogi philosophy they call it Samadhi or in Buddhism it is called Nirvana...They reach that goal very fast, it is almost like they are racing there..racing to get back to their awareness of oneness with the universe. That awareness is going to happen to you regardless, and one thing I have learned too is that the process of evolution is not a race. We didn't merge ourselves into forgetfulness and seperation to just race back to oneness, that is not the purpose of it..We are here to experience and for god, that is within all of us, life, the universe, what I call 'god', to experience what it means to exist.
Now what it means to exist entails everything that makes you happy, everything that makes you depressed, everything that makes you feel shamed, everything that makes you feel prideful, everything that makes you feel angry, everything that gives you forgiveness, everything that gives you faith....It is not just all good things, we are here to experience everything and unfortunately a lot of things hurt, but that is why we are here...we are here to experience that. If god never understood what shame was then god would not totally know gods own self...so when you are feeling all these different things, just be aware of wants, needs,and what you are pushing away. One thing that my guide........I am going to digress slightly for a moment...lol...I have to tell you my guide has been helping me a lot, more than ever I realised before with the posts I have made previously..They were brought to me through my guide and here was I arrogant enough to suppose that I was just learning the stuff on my own. Now that I have a clear communication with my guide, I am realising just how far my guide has been helping me on my path, and anyway back to what i was saying...my guide wanted to let me know that it is ok to want something. If you want something , as long as it doesn't infringe upon the rights of another ...and as long as it is not injuring another or hurting them purposely , without their permission....that is what the universe is desiring to express itself through you, and you are going to keep wanting until it is fulfilled and until you move on.
As we progress as souls what happens basically is our wants change...The things that you may want right now, food, sex, money, feeling superior maybe to others...All of these things that you want to feel, importance...you are going to strive to achieve them and you are going to have some hang ups along the way, but eventually you know you are going to feel all those things, and you are going to feel them to the point when you realise that's not what you want anymore...and you are going to move on...It's like a child laying aside playschool toys...and you know if the child keeps pushing the toys away, because he is not 'supposed' to be playing with them because they are 'bad'..well he/she is never going to out grow them...In order to out grow your toys, you have to play with them, and if you have to play with them for a long time, then play with them, but you are going to outgrow them....You don't outgrow things repressing them.
There are different paths, there is the path that most westerners take and it might be a lot slower in re-awakening to your oneness with your higher self, and with the universe and with everything within and around you...it is a lot slower, but you know what, god experiences a lot more through that path. God experiences everything through that path of giving god what god desires through you, and then out growing it. Now you are going to see two different philosophies if you study eastern cultures and western cultures. The Eastern cultures tell you to repress it , don't eat meat, don't have sex....I love Ghandi, I have read a lot about him, but Ghandi only had sex once a year and that was with his wife and it was to have a child and that was it....I can't live that way...( although starting to feel a lot like i want to lol)....Or could I? The thing is by this Ghandi is not balanced..I dont want to step on easterners but I have to tell you Ghandi was a great philosopher and a great teacher and there are many like him....but Ghandi bless his heart was not balanced, he is not balanced at all..infact..I sometimes wonder if people like Ghandi later reincarnate as maybe a lapdancer or something like that!!!!!! I don't know just a thought....See I am blabbering again!
You have to face everything you cannot repress, repress, repress...and you will outgrow your toys, it is inevitable. You are not going to be stuck in playschool. The universe doesn't work that way. You will feel stuck and you will feel shamed if you repress the things that the universe is desiring to express itself through you as....so these were all new thoughts for me but I can see it now.
There is a difference between wants, needs and addictions...You could go over board and say everyone is an addiction...our job is to get rid of any want because we are going to call all wants addictions...That is not true..That's totally just throwing the baby out with the bath water......But their are somethings that you don't really want, but you can't put them down because it's an addiction...and one of those things is....for me..I am ashamed to admit it, you would probably not think this from me but their have been times in my life when I became very stressed out , or I am going through a depression or something like that....I smoke....bet you can't believe that eh!!!! I smoke..and you know I will pick up cigarettes for a month , one time I picked it up for about 3 months..I did that a couple of times..and then I will just push them aside. I don't want it anymore, I start feeling good..I don't want it anymore..and it just kind of slips away as if i didn't desire it..infact when I try to stop smoking and the times when I have tried, I can't do it, it's like I can't do it I have to buy a patch and then I am pushing away something that I really want....But what inevitably happens is as you becaome happy again....you don't want it..you out grow it...and that is something that I hopefully have outgrown for good..I am still working on it right now.
These are things I am trying to teach you is that..say if you push away cigarettes you are going to find out after a few days that you really didn't want it in the frst place...It only takes a few days and you don't want it...and that is because their was some kind of chemical reaction going on in your body..Now that's an addction..People can be addicted to sex too, because sex is a chemical reaction as well....and I am going to give you my own philosophy on an addiction and I could be wrong and maybe my guide will straighten me out later...But I really think an addiction is a problem when it begins to disrupt your life, take away from the beauty of your life..and cigarettes can do that because they will shorten your life..so that's an addiction..so is drinking, sex etc...But you would have to decide that for yourself..What's the life you desire to live? Addictions will creep in..any kind of addiction...Food, sex, drugs, alcohol....any kind of addiction will come in and it will overtake the life that you want to live..That's an addiction...Because the truth is the universe is trying to live a life through you..which may include all those things..( Not Drugs!!!)... it wants to enjoy sex, food, it wants you to enjoy exersize, it wants you to enjoy these things, but then people can start to form their whole entire life around one of those avenues, and loose purpose of their life and why they are here. To me that's an addiction.
So basically I know this is a bit long winded but I want to just recap by saying...Don't be ashamed of the things you want..you are a mirror reflection of the great cosmos and you are here to experience what it means to exist and nothing is bad unless you judge it to be so....and that's something jesus said...'nothing is bad unless you judge it to be so'..But in the reality..I don't know...Anyway I hope this might help somebody understand a bit more.
Storm x
