Post by STORMDANCER on Nov 15, 2011 23:49:47 GMT
In this post I am going to share some things that were in the path of my mystic journey with the hope that something that I share will help you along the same path. There are some things I still need to tell you, some things I still need to share, but as I share some of the things that have happened in my own past, the stepping stones of my own growth, I do not by any means want you to think that I am supporting a religion or a philosophy or a spiritual dogma, because that’s not my point…. But I can’t relate to you what I am trying to convey unless I do so with my own frame of reference. Everything that I know and understand in my own life comes from the experiences of my own life and my own frame of reference, just like you. You can’t relate things that are out of your own context of your frame of reference.
I told you all I grew up going to a church of England school and also went to church on Sunday’s and Sunday school etc. as was my mothers wish. Before I go on with this I want to express profoundly that I am so grateful that I was raised in a religion that allowed and taught me to look beyond the surface of things and to find the deeper spiritual nature of what I am, of who I am, of what the universe is, of what god is and how god relates to everything around me and to myself.
When I was a child I took things very seriously when it came to religion because I was born into this world with some kind of innate something about my spirit that deeply wanted to know the truth. Deeply wanted to find knowledge beyond what I saw around me and I think that most kids aren’t like that, most children were interested in cartoons, games etc.. well when I was young they were we didn’t have computer games then… But I was totally different , those things didn’t interest me. I wanted even as a six year old child.. I remember laying in my bed asking what am I?.. Closing my eyes and when I did that I found myself in a very familiar setting. I found myself when I closed my eyes and my body was still, that everything in the outside world began to fade away and I soon lost awareness of my own body… I didn’t see anything and sounds dissolved. I would lay there in the stillness and it seemed so familiar to me, like I had been there before and I asked the same question.. Who am I ? What am I ? I know I exist but what does it mean to exist ? I was six when that happened to me and I wonder how many six year olds come into the world thinking those questions, I don’t know. I think I bought things into the world from other experiences before this life… But anyway in my religion back then I became very trapped in dogma. I learned things that made sense to me in my mind and because they made sense to me I felt good about them in my heart and I began to see nothing beyond what I felt good about… I think that’s ok because you know as a child and as an adolescent you are searching for truth and when you find something that makes sense to your mind you hold onto it, you don’t want to let go.. And when that happens you don’t learn anymore. I will give you some examples:
When I was a teenager at school I got involved in a born again Christian group..( not for long I have to add) .. I am not a Christian and have not been for many years since I was 16.. I am proud of what I did when I was young because those few years of my life I was just going through the actions of being a Christian but at the same time I was searching for higher truths and knowing that there was more out there that I had yet to learn and understand and I kept reaching for it, and reaching for it, and because I did that with an open mind, Like a child I began to get more and understand more.
I want to share one experience that was the most profound experience that changed my life.. See In the scriptures they have this story about a brother a bit like Paul or Moses.. He wanted to see god, he wanted to know the true essence of what god was… and I myself had been praying and pleading with god to help me to find out what was beyond what I know.. I wanted to really know . I wanted to really know what you are because you know the mystics teach the two greatest commandments are…. To love god with all your heart, might, mind and strength and to love your neighbour as yourself….. Everything else is just extra icing on the cake… That is the core of what the mystics are trying to tell us and in order to love god with all your heart, might, mind and strength, you have to know god… You can’t love something you don’t know , and the deeper you know god in his true essence or her true essence, the essence of what you are and the essence of the universe, the deeper you understand what that is… the more you can love it….. So that’s what I asked.. I said… ‘ god I want to know’ I said ‘I have tried for so long to know you the best I can, now it’s time you gave me more’ I said ‘Please let me know more… let me know more of what you are?’ Up until that point I saw god as a person, I saw him as a glorified man who was separate from me. I know that seems to some religions a kind of old way of thinking but that was the way I saw got at that young age.
Was I wrong? Well in some ways no.. but I found out I was not right either, that it was both, it was like a paradox and I had been only seeing up to that point one side of the paradox.
I can remember at school when I was about 15yrs old going out to the field at lunch time and the wind was blowing, the sun was shining, I felt the sun, I felt the wind. I watched my friends playing around me, playing and laughing and all of a sudden I guess my prayers had finally been answered because something more than I could ever explain in words happened to me. Suddenly I felt myself within the grass, I know that might sound mad but I wasn’t any longer me.. I was the grass and I felt myself, I didn’t see because I had no eyes but I was well aware of what grass felt like … and I didn’t feel like… ‘that’s the grass and I am feeling the grass’ No it was I’m feeling myself, this I what I am.. I felt myself in the trees, and I expanded more and I felt myself within the trees, I didn’t see any thing but I felt an essence I had never felt before, and it was not foreign to me. It was a deeper nature of what I was. Suddenly I had expanded I was not my body anymore… yet I was… I was aware of my body but I was aware of being in the trees, the grass, and suddenly I saw just on the field through every child’s eyes at once.. I knew what they were thinking, I saw through their eyes as if they were me and I was them and I didn’t see through them one at a time, I saw through everything at once. Now that awareness didn’t expand beyond the field and I’m glad because it would have been more than I could bear. I don’t know what would have happened because this was for only… I don’t know how long it was maybe a second, maybe 5 minutes, I have no idea but I know that it was so overwhelming to me that I could not comprehend what I was experiencing yet it was do deep and profound that I had become everything within that field at school, every tree, every plant, I even felt myself blowing as the wind.. For one second I saw through gods eyes and I realised that god was not just a man outside of the universe and outside of myself …. Gods everything.
We are not just the offspring of god we are a part of his body. When god made the universe he made the universe out of his own essence , and that essence is not separate from what he is, god sees through the eyes of every person, through every creation as himself. He feels through the grass, through the wind. He flows through the water and nothing is dead, everything has a vibration, a flow of energy, and I felt it and it was more than I could take in…. and instantly I snapped back to myself, but what I had experienced at that moment.. I could never go back to seeing god the way I saw him before as separate from myself. I couldn’t put the genie back in the bottle no matter how hard I tried because I knew at pretending to put the genie back in the bottle that I was denying what I felt and saw. Now I’m going to go on with this because it’s relevant to what ever you were raised and what ever you believe and how ever you see the universe now.
I had some problems before this happened and I will give you some examples. When I was a young girl at school I wrote a story for my RE homework and I shared a real experience that happened to me, at that age I was 14.. In the story I prayed because I had been told to pray and ask if the bible was true. Well I have to tell you and I am NOT a Christian now so keep that in mind… but it doesn’t negate what I experienced.. I asked god, I said ‘ I’ve read the bible and I need you to tell me for true, true 100% is the bible truth?’ and I had the warmest feeling in my heart that let me know that what I was doing at that time was right and I misunderstood that feeling, which is easy to do…. What is the bible teaching me.. Basically if you throw out all the stories and nonsense it was basically saying what I said before.. To love god and love my neighbour as myself, that’s basically the essence .. Now is god going to tell me that it’s not true…… NO… All he, she, the universe, what you really are beyond time and space is watching you within himself and trying to get you aware of something much more profound, and that was the next step of my awareness. Now if he would have told me the bible was not true, If I had have had a bad negative feeling at that age I would have been so confused at that age I would have stopped believing in any religion, I would have probably gone on and just done things that would have driven me deeper and deeper into ignorance…. And that was not what I needed.. So I held onto that answer.
I have to tell you that I do not right now believe the bible is literally a historical record and I am not going to argue one way or the other because who cares!!! There is ample evidence for people who want to see either side of the story if they want.. Who cares stop picking sides… because you know I picked sides and spent two years of my life trying to tell everyone ‘ this is the truth’ and while I was sitting there defending what I had come to realise as something profound at that time in my life.. I was closing myself off to everything else, I was so busy defending it that, that was what I was doing and I was not instead opening myself up to more, expanding beyond where I was and as I began to stop defending things I began to realise that maybe things are much more than I see.
See Christians, and I’m relating this from my own past not because of this religion being true, DO NOT misunderstand.. I am NOT a Christian now, I’m not a Baptist I belong to NO religion, and that’s a good thing because now I am open to everything and I can see the truth all around me and I don’t stick to something…I’m digressing lol.. But I want to tell you about something else that happened when I was 15 and these things taught me , later on as I reflected on them, they taught me how to progress to where I am now.
Christians believe god is a person, he’s a man. Now they have ample evidence to support their belief in scriptures. Jesus Christ they said resurrected from the dead, you could touch him, feel him… Of course he appeared out of nothing when he had done that, there was nothing there before and then suddenly he appears, he is physical and he is there and they are touching him. See people take these things and they say.. ‘ Well then that’s it gods a man, he is physical as he has a body’….
But what if god has a deeper nature, what if god realises that, god or the self realised being is one with the universe. That the universe is what he is, in its entirety , every planet, every particle of the intelligence within the universe is what he is.. Well with that understanding could he then manifest and use particles in the universe to create a form so that he could appear to people… Yes he can…. He could take on a physical form temporarily because I’ll tell you one thing, If he was just the big unknowable to people, nobody would be able to really understand or communicate with god so does he have a body? I believe that any self realised person could appear physically and then they could return to the essence of what they really are that’s higher and disappear … just like Christ did… You know mystics in the east have realised the self, that their self is really the self of the universe and that this body we are in now is only a bubble, a minut part of who they really are beyond time and space. There are many stories that are just like Christ.. They come to the same realisation of their oneness with everything.. Just like Christ did .. And they are able to disappear and re appear too. Now Christians will scoff.. They will say Christ is the only one to do that but mystics will say no. They will say that anyone who is self realised can do that because they know what they are and they are much more than a physical body…. Can they take on a physical form?…… Most definitely …. and when you cross over to the astral world you will have a different type of body and you will be able to take on any form you want yet it’s still you, it’s the same thing. Masters can do it in the physical world too.
I can remember in my RE lesson at school we had things on the wall in the classroom like a list and it would say.. God is a man etc.. and all these points Christians believe in.. and every little verse that supported what they believed and my teacher would take a look at these and say god is an unknowable essence he is omni present and then he would show us verses in the bible to back this up.. Then we would discuss other sides etc and why they say this and what other religions say.. What if they were both true? What if each of us stopped taking sides, defending what we think is true.. And stop taking sides, and become like a child and be willing to stop defending what we think is real to find something greater. I think in that class we would both have realised we were both right.
While we are so busy taking sides and defending it I was not learning past what I knew and as I moved on I realised it doesn’t matter… Who cares!! You can’t prove it one way or the other so why waste your time trying to defend something that has an equal argument on both sides.. You don’t know so STOP it and that’s what I did.
Incidentally I went and spoke to the pastor/leader of my church and I told him… I said.. I have to leave the church and its not because I don’t like the church it’s because I have learned things that now I know I can’t fit into the ‘Christian’ box and now that I understand deeper …….. And he stopped me right there and he said.. ‘Where did you get this knowledge?’ So I told him what had happened to me at school etc.. The most beautiful profound experience I ever saw and ever felt and my pastor said.. ‘ If it’s taking you away from the church it’s of the devil!!!’
Well you know that’s what they told Martin Luther, that’s what they told Galileo.. See people are so busy holding onto what they believe, and they don’t want to learn more, and then they come to realise that maybe there is something higher and so they evolve their dogma and expand it, and they then are stuck in that expansion.
Did you know that the Catholic Church excused and gave a pardon to Galileo who lived hundreds of years ago.. They finally pardoned him because you know they excommunicated him from the church for what he had taught.. That the Earth was not the centre of the universe which was dogma of Christianity back then. They finally pardoned him in 1970’s.. 60’s or 70’s I forget which date .. But you know what.. THAT’S RIDICULOUS! ! We had ample proof that what he had said throughout the centuries was absolutely true , yet they still held onto that dogma even though they knew. That’s ridiculous!! Do you see by holding onto what you believe and defending it, defending the limited things that you understand prevents you from seeing a higher picture, and I was doing it because I was afraid , but as soon as I realised that I am not separate from god, god is not going to throw me and separate me from himself and throw me into outer darkness or into a lower kingdom where I will never, worlds without end see him.. Which is hell and what Christians teach you. Christians teach and many other faiths teach that if you don’t accept their church and god and teachings either in the physical world or in the spirit world beyond this life.. That you will never see gods face.. EVER.. Hell.
Well I don’t know any father or mother who would ever, ever do that to their child! I have known fathers and mothers who have let their children go because of something the child did or something the child believed and they don’t want anything to do with those children…. But that’s not love!
I realised I am a part of god He can’t cast me away… Where the hell is he going to cast me? And I use that literally because.. Where in Hell?? Where the Hell is Hell!!!!?? Everything is made of god and there is nothing that exists beyond. God made the universe , whatever god is, what ever you want to call ‘god’.. The intelligence, the consciousness that makes everything up… He made it out of himself because there was nothing else. He was the Alpha the very first, nothing exists outside of him. He didn’t know what he was, he just knew he existed.. And I am saying ‘he’ because I am trying to relate it to what you may see in your religion, spiritual path… But god is not a man, god existed before the male and the female. The primal source.
Buddhists tell you this… If you think that god has a form and a shape, and you limit god to that, you have not gone deep enough to the origin of all things… and when you go deep enough to the origin of all things, the origin , the very primal essence of what makes the universe, what makes everything up, what makes intelligence up, and thought etc.. It did not have a form, or shape, and that primal essence was once upon a time YOU and it was ME and it didn’t know what it meant to exist.. So out of its own self, out of a part of its own self it creates the universe and then parts of itself, its own self is manifest and forgets the entirety. Temporarily we forget the entirety of what we are.. The unknowable essence, and there is reason for that. That unknowable essence voluntarily let part of its own self forget what it is because in forgetting what it is, it’s able to discover its own potential of what it can be.
There is a Christian saying that I used to hold onto when I was younger because I really believed it was true, and it is true but I didn’t discover the deeper nature until later.. They say…. ‘ What man is god once was and what god is man may become’. Well if you take away the confines of time and space, and there is no more time and you see the simultaneous nature of all that is… Which is what Albert Einstein taught, the universe exists as a simultaneous whole… If you take away the confines of time.. What man is god once was and what god is man may become is all happening now through you and me. We are all part of god that’s discovering what it means to be god. We are the part right now that, as man is god once was and as god is man may become…. I related that to what I learned as a child and I realise that what I learned as a child was not false, but it did not also reflect the deeper nature of things and I never came to that realisation until I relinquished what I thought I knew.. And I became like a child and was teachable… I guess that’s why the mystics all tell you in order to inherit the kingdom of heaven.. Buddhists say too in order to reach the state of nirvana you have to let go of what you know and you have to be like a child.
I feel I know so much more than I did before and I understand things deeper, but I sure as hell will not hold onto what I have right now and say what I know is absolute truth .. I will not form a dogma around it and tell it to you, that this is the way things are…. I will present I as a next step on your path, but I’m not going to tell you that because I have realised that s soon as you do that your in ‘hell’.. You don’t progress , it’s like a dam on a river, you just dammed yourself ..maybe that’s how the word ‘dammed’ became a part of hell? Because your in hell when you dam the river up. You dammed it up by holding onto what you know , and thinking .. That’s it…. Well I released the dam and I started to progress.
I have to tell you something about religions, and this is true. I have met so many people in my life and when I was younger and into Christianity , a lot were catholic and I would try and talk to them about more in their lives ..Yet they wanted to hold onto what they believed in and I couldn’t understand why. My picture is so much clearer won’t you just get out of your fear and they would tell me that in the catholic church if you leave the church basically your going to hell and they were afraid to get out of their box, and I would say please trust in yourself get out of the box, but their fear was greater than what I was telling them and then I began to realise years later that, that was what I was doing too .
When I was 16 and I said I was leaving the church. I said I had to because if I stay in the church I am would be saying that this is what I believed and one of the beliefs of the church is that this is the only true church and now I realise this is not true… They say this is the fullness.. And I realise that’s not true so it wasn’t out of anger that I left the church it was out of my own statement to myself that I cannot belong to an organisation that I do not believe in anymore. One of the first things the church leader gave me back was fear.. You’ll never see your family again, that’s what he told me, beyond this life you will be un-see able to god , your never going to know god, your going to hell… I tried to explain to him that I already know more about god because of what I had experienced , more than I can even relate you and I tried to say.. You know what I can’t even relate it to you because you’ve never experienced it… he said.. What you experienced that is taking you away from the church is the devil!! I was 16!!!.. The same thing the Catholics say .. Same thing the Baptists tell you … See what people don’t realise is any institution , once people have formed an institution whether it is religion or toys r us … no embodied organised entity or religion wants to disappear . See what I discovered through my experience, the ramifications of it basically said I don’t need the church now to grow.. They can’t tolerate that, religions can’t tolerate that, so what each of them will do is throw fear at you to keep you in there in their religion.
This is why I told you in order to jump out of the whirlpool what we find ourselves in, you have to have a perfect faith and trust that god is not going to sever you from himself. Where is he going to put you anyway? Where is he going to put you? There is nowhere outside of him! See god is within you and all around you. Jesus said… ‘ I’m within the father and the father is within me’ and people had no idea what that meant, they interpreted it in any way they could, most of them did it in the physical world because they can’t see beyond their physical senses. All they see is the illusion of separation so they didn’t understand.
When I had the first experience I understood what Jesus was trying to say when he said.. ‘ I am within the father and the father is within me’…because I am right now in the universe and the universe is within me and there is no separation. Now I bring this to your attention because as soon as I was able to let go of what I believed I opened myself up to other things, I didn’t just let go of my religion and go to no religion, no spirituality, which is what a lot of people do and I think for them they are better to stay in their religion because at least they are reaching out for more there.. But I reached out for more genuinely , so I got more and I read the teachings of Buddha….. Did I become a Buddhist .. NO.. because I don’t want to jump into another Whirlpool or box, another dogma… But I read it and then I started to see the similarities of what the Buddha was teaching with what Christ was teaching.. When you get rid of all the dogmas that try to keep you trapped in some kind of religion, when you get rid of all the stuff that people have been throwing at you to keep you there, you start to see the core essence of what the mystics were teaching.. And I realised that if I had stayed in my whirlpool or box I would never have seen anything beyond what and where I was, I would never have read the teachings of Buddha and I would never have seen the profound similarities between what he was and what Christ was.. I would never have read the Bhagavad Gita which to me was one of the most spiritual books I have ever encountered that shows you what the deeper nature of reality is.. I would never have done it.. Now would I become a Hindu? NO … because Hindus hold onto their book and very few ever go to the teachings of Buddha.
Now I will tell you something else. Jesus was a Jew .. He owed a lot to the Jewish faith.. but did he hold onto it? NO….. he taught people more.. Did people call him a heretic? Most definitely … so much so he threatened the orthodoxy of his day to the point where they put him to death…Yet did he die? NO .. Neither will you. Was the Buddha considered a heretic?……. I have news for you the Buddha was considered a heretic because he came out of Hinduism, but how wonderful that he took the essence of Hinduism and added more to it, expanded the knowledge of who we are. Something with every religions we must do is to stop taking sides, you start taking sides and you end up with a holy war, so lost in ignorance that you don’t realise the people you are killing and hurting through the crusades, through the Islamic radicals etc.. they are killing themselves.
There is going to come a time in your eternal existence when you are going to wake up and you are going to realise that every thing you have done to everyone else you have been doing to yourself. When you return to a state of oneness you are going to feel the pain that you have given others as your own pain. That is why you need to love god with all your heart, might, mind and strength and love your neighbour as yourself. That’s why you need to know that what ever you do to the least of these my brother you have done to me. That’s what Christ was trying to say.
There is no separation, separation is an illusion. Separation is an illusion that we create so we can experience and know what it means to be ‘I am’ . I don’t know if that’s is all I wanted to say in this post. I want you all to know one thing and that is that all my posts are from my heart and my life lessons.
I ask my guide before I write a post to please help me express what it is that he has shown me and what I have learned. Help me to express it in a way that people will understand and relate to.
I hope I have done that.
Be strong live your life for who you are in knowing that you are god and god is you... Never get trapped in dogma to go on and on about other religions is being trapped it just shouts it out... plus ignoring it blaming others.... look past that and start with YOU.....The blame is nothing to do with your soul it is anothers ......................... stop living with other souls rubbish. Digging things up about others shows the spiritual path is not ready for you...look deeper.
Anyway that’s all I have to say in this post.
Love and peace to you all
Storm
I told you all I grew up going to a church of England school and also went to church on Sunday’s and Sunday school etc. as was my mothers wish. Before I go on with this I want to express profoundly that I am so grateful that I was raised in a religion that allowed and taught me to look beyond the surface of things and to find the deeper spiritual nature of what I am, of who I am, of what the universe is, of what god is and how god relates to everything around me and to myself.
When I was a child I took things very seriously when it came to religion because I was born into this world with some kind of innate something about my spirit that deeply wanted to know the truth. Deeply wanted to find knowledge beyond what I saw around me and I think that most kids aren’t like that, most children were interested in cartoons, games etc.. well when I was young they were we didn’t have computer games then… But I was totally different , those things didn’t interest me. I wanted even as a six year old child.. I remember laying in my bed asking what am I?.. Closing my eyes and when I did that I found myself in a very familiar setting. I found myself when I closed my eyes and my body was still, that everything in the outside world began to fade away and I soon lost awareness of my own body… I didn’t see anything and sounds dissolved. I would lay there in the stillness and it seemed so familiar to me, like I had been there before and I asked the same question.. Who am I ? What am I ? I know I exist but what does it mean to exist ? I was six when that happened to me and I wonder how many six year olds come into the world thinking those questions, I don’t know. I think I bought things into the world from other experiences before this life… But anyway in my religion back then I became very trapped in dogma. I learned things that made sense to me in my mind and because they made sense to me I felt good about them in my heart and I began to see nothing beyond what I felt good about… I think that’s ok because you know as a child and as an adolescent you are searching for truth and when you find something that makes sense to your mind you hold onto it, you don’t want to let go.. And when that happens you don’t learn anymore. I will give you some examples:
When I was a teenager at school I got involved in a born again Christian group..( not for long I have to add) .. I am not a Christian and have not been for many years since I was 16.. I am proud of what I did when I was young because those few years of my life I was just going through the actions of being a Christian but at the same time I was searching for higher truths and knowing that there was more out there that I had yet to learn and understand and I kept reaching for it, and reaching for it, and because I did that with an open mind, Like a child I began to get more and understand more.
I want to share one experience that was the most profound experience that changed my life.. See In the scriptures they have this story about a brother a bit like Paul or Moses.. He wanted to see god, he wanted to know the true essence of what god was… and I myself had been praying and pleading with god to help me to find out what was beyond what I know.. I wanted to really know . I wanted to really know what you are because you know the mystics teach the two greatest commandments are…. To love god with all your heart, might, mind and strength and to love your neighbour as yourself….. Everything else is just extra icing on the cake… That is the core of what the mystics are trying to tell us and in order to love god with all your heart, might, mind and strength, you have to know god… You can’t love something you don’t know , and the deeper you know god in his true essence or her true essence, the essence of what you are and the essence of the universe, the deeper you understand what that is… the more you can love it….. So that’s what I asked.. I said… ‘ god I want to know’ I said ‘I have tried for so long to know you the best I can, now it’s time you gave me more’ I said ‘Please let me know more… let me know more of what you are?’ Up until that point I saw god as a person, I saw him as a glorified man who was separate from me. I know that seems to some religions a kind of old way of thinking but that was the way I saw got at that young age.
Was I wrong? Well in some ways no.. but I found out I was not right either, that it was both, it was like a paradox and I had been only seeing up to that point one side of the paradox.
I can remember at school when I was about 15yrs old going out to the field at lunch time and the wind was blowing, the sun was shining, I felt the sun, I felt the wind. I watched my friends playing around me, playing and laughing and all of a sudden I guess my prayers had finally been answered because something more than I could ever explain in words happened to me. Suddenly I felt myself within the grass, I know that might sound mad but I wasn’t any longer me.. I was the grass and I felt myself, I didn’t see because I had no eyes but I was well aware of what grass felt like … and I didn’t feel like… ‘that’s the grass and I am feeling the grass’ No it was I’m feeling myself, this I what I am.. I felt myself in the trees, and I expanded more and I felt myself within the trees, I didn’t see any thing but I felt an essence I had never felt before, and it was not foreign to me. It was a deeper nature of what I was. Suddenly I had expanded I was not my body anymore… yet I was… I was aware of my body but I was aware of being in the trees, the grass, and suddenly I saw just on the field through every child’s eyes at once.. I knew what they were thinking, I saw through their eyes as if they were me and I was them and I didn’t see through them one at a time, I saw through everything at once. Now that awareness didn’t expand beyond the field and I’m glad because it would have been more than I could bear. I don’t know what would have happened because this was for only… I don’t know how long it was maybe a second, maybe 5 minutes, I have no idea but I know that it was so overwhelming to me that I could not comprehend what I was experiencing yet it was do deep and profound that I had become everything within that field at school, every tree, every plant, I even felt myself blowing as the wind.. For one second I saw through gods eyes and I realised that god was not just a man outside of the universe and outside of myself …. Gods everything.
We are not just the offspring of god we are a part of his body. When god made the universe he made the universe out of his own essence , and that essence is not separate from what he is, god sees through the eyes of every person, through every creation as himself. He feels through the grass, through the wind. He flows through the water and nothing is dead, everything has a vibration, a flow of energy, and I felt it and it was more than I could take in…. and instantly I snapped back to myself, but what I had experienced at that moment.. I could never go back to seeing god the way I saw him before as separate from myself. I couldn’t put the genie back in the bottle no matter how hard I tried because I knew at pretending to put the genie back in the bottle that I was denying what I felt and saw. Now I’m going to go on with this because it’s relevant to what ever you were raised and what ever you believe and how ever you see the universe now.
I had some problems before this happened and I will give you some examples. When I was a young girl at school I wrote a story for my RE homework and I shared a real experience that happened to me, at that age I was 14.. In the story I prayed because I had been told to pray and ask if the bible was true. Well I have to tell you and I am NOT a Christian now so keep that in mind… but it doesn’t negate what I experienced.. I asked god, I said ‘ I’ve read the bible and I need you to tell me for true, true 100% is the bible truth?’ and I had the warmest feeling in my heart that let me know that what I was doing at that time was right and I misunderstood that feeling, which is easy to do…. What is the bible teaching me.. Basically if you throw out all the stories and nonsense it was basically saying what I said before.. To love god and love my neighbour as myself, that’s basically the essence .. Now is god going to tell me that it’s not true…… NO… All he, she, the universe, what you really are beyond time and space is watching you within himself and trying to get you aware of something much more profound, and that was the next step of my awareness. Now if he would have told me the bible was not true, If I had have had a bad negative feeling at that age I would have been so confused at that age I would have stopped believing in any religion, I would have probably gone on and just done things that would have driven me deeper and deeper into ignorance…. And that was not what I needed.. So I held onto that answer.
I have to tell you that I do not right now believe the bible is literally a historical record and I am not going to argue one way or the other because who cares!!! There is ample evidence for people who want to see either side of the story if they want.. Who cares stop picking sides… because you know I picked sides and spent two years of my life trying to tell everyone ‘ this is the truth’ and while I was sitting there defending what I had come to realise as something profound at that time in my life.. I was closing myself off to everything else, I was so busy defending it that, that was what I was doing and I was not instead opening myself up to more, expanding beyond where I was and as I began to stop defending things I began to realise that maybe things are much more than I see.
See Christians, and I’m relating this from my own past not because of this religion being true, DO NOT misunderstand.. I am NOT a Christian now, I’m not a Baptist I belong to NO religion, and that’s a good thing because now I am open to everything and I can see the truth all around me and I don’t stick to something…I’m digressing lol.. But I want to tell you about something else that happened when I was 15 and these things taught me , later on as I reflected on them, they taught me how to progress to where I am now.
Christians believe god is a person, he’s a man. Now they have ample evidence to support their belief in scriptures. Jesus Christ they said resurrected from the dead, you could touch him, feel him… Of course he appeared out of nothing when he had done that, there was nothing there before and then suddenly he appears, he is physical and he is there and they are touching him. See people take these things and they say.. ‘ Well then that’s it gods a man, he is physical as he has a body’….
But what if god has a deeper nature, what if god realises that, god or the self realised being is one with the universe. That the universe is what he is, in its entirety , every planet, every particle of the intelligence within the universe is what he is.. Well with that understanding could he then manifest and use particles in the universe to create a form so that he could appear to people… Yes he can…. He could take on a physical form temporarily because I’ll tell you one thing, If he was just the big unknowable to people, nobody would be able to really understand or communicate with god so does he have a body? I believe that any self realised person could appear physically and then they could return to the essence of what they really are that’s higher and disappear … just like Christ did… You know mystics in the east have realised the self, that their self is really the self of the universe and that this body we are in now is only a bubble, a minut part of who they really are beyond time and space. There are many stories that are just like Christ.. They come to the same realisation of their oneness with everything.. Just like Christ did .. And they are able to disappear and re appear too. Now Christians will scoff.. They will say Christ is the only one to do that but mystics will say no. They will say that anyone who is self realised can do that because they know what they are and they are much more than a physical body…. Can they take on a physical form?…… Most definitely …. and when you cross over to the astral world you will have a different type of body and you will be able to take on any form you want yet it’s still you, it’s the same thing. Masters can do it in the physical world too.
I can remember in my RE lesson at school we had things on the wall in the classroom like a list and it would say.. God is a man etc.. and all these points Christians believe in.. and every little verse that supported what they believed and my teacher would take a look at these and say god is an unknowable essence he is omni present and then he would show us verses in the bible to back this up.. Then we would discuss other sides etc and why they say this and what other religions say.. What if they were both true? What if each of us stopped taking sides, defending what we think is true.. And stop taking sides, and become like a child and be willing to stop defending what we think is real to find something greater. I think in that class we would both have realised we were both right.
While we are so busy taking sides and defending it I was not learning past what I knew and as I moved on I realised it doesn’t matter… Who cares!! You can’t prove it one way or the other so why waste your time trying to defend something that has an equal argument on both sides.. You don’t know so STOP it and that’s what I did.
Incidentally I went and spoke to the pastor/leader of my church and I told him… I said.. I have to leave the church and its not because I don’t like the church it’s because I have learned things that now I know I can’t fit into the ‘Christian’ box and now that I understand deeper …….. And he stopped me right there and he said.. ‘Where did you get this knowledge?’ So I told him what had happened to me at school etc.. The most beautiful profound experience I ever saw and ever felt and my pastor said.. ‘ If it’s taking you away from the church it’s of the devil!!!’
Well you know that’s what they told Martin Luther, that’s what they told Galileo.. See people are so busy holding onto what they believe, and they don’t want to learn more, and then they come to realise that maybe there is something higher and so they evolve their dogma and expand it, and they then are stuck in that expansion.
Did you know that the Catholic Church excused and gave a pardon to Galileo who lived hundreds of years ago.. They finally pardoned him because you know they excommunicated him from the church for what he had taught.. That the Earth was not the centre of the universe which was dogma of Christianity back then. They finally pardoned him in 1970’s.. 60’s or 70’s I forget which date .. But you know what.. THAT’S RIDICULOUS! ! We had ample proof that what he had said throughout the centuries was absolutely true , yet they still held onto that dogma even though they knew. That’s ridiculous!! Do you see by holding onto what you believe and defending it, defending the limited things that you understand prevents you from seeing a higher picture, and I was doing it because I was afraid , but as soon as I realised that I am not separate from god, god is not going to throw me and separate me from himself and throw me into outer darkness or into a lower kingdom where I will never, worlds without end see him.. Which is hell and what Christians teach you. Christians teach and many other faiths teach that if you don’t accept their church and god and teachings either in the physical world or in the spirit world beyond this life.. That you will never see gods face.. EVER.. Hell.
Well I don’t know any father or mother who would ever, ever do that to their child! I have known fathers and mothers who have let their children go because of something the child did or something the child believed and they don’t want anything to do with those children…. But that’s not love!
I realised I am a part of god He can’t cast me away… Where the hell is he going to cast me? And I use that literally because.. Where in Hell?? Where the Hell is Hell!!!!?? Everything is made of god and there is nothing that exists beyond. God made the universe , whatever god is, what ever you want to call ‘god’.. The intelligence, the consciousness that makes everything up… He made it out of himself because there was nothing else. He was the Alpha the very first, nothing exists outside of him. He didn’t know what he was, he just knew he existed.. And I am saying ‘he’ because I am trying to relate it to what you may see in your religion, spiritual path… But god is not a man, god existed before the male and the female. The primal source.
Buddhists tell you this… If you think that god has a form and a shape, and you limit god to that, you have not gone deep enough to the origin of all things… and when you go deep enough to the origin of all things, the origin , the very primal essence of what makes the universe, what makes everything up, what makes intelligence up, and thought etc.. It did not have a form, or shape, and that primal essence was once upon a time YOU and it was ME and it didn’t know what it meant to exist.. So out of its own self, out of a part of its own self it creates the universe and then parts of itself, its own self is manifest and forgets the entirety. Temporarily we forget the entirety of what we are.. The unknowable essence, and there is reason for that. That unknowable essence voluntarily let part of its own self forget what it is because in forgetting what it is, it’s able to discover its own potential of what it can be.
There is a Christian saying that I used to hold onto when I was younger because I really believed it was true, and it is true but I didn’t discover the deeper nature until later.. They say…. ‘ What man is god once was and what god is man may become’. Well if you take away the confines of time and space, and there is no more time and you see the simultaneous nature of all that is… Which is what Albert Einstein taught, the universe exists as a simultaneous whole… If you take away the confines of time.. What man is god once was and what god is man may become is all happening now through you and me. We are all part of god that’s discovering what it means to be god. We are the part right now that, as man is god once was and as god is man may become…. I related that to what I learned as a child and I realise that what I learned as a child was not false, but it did not also reflect the deeper nature of things and I never came to that realisation until I relinquished what I thought I knew.. And I became like a child and was teachable… I guess that’s why the mystics all tell you in order to inherit the kingdom of heaven.. Buddhists say too in order to reach the state of nirvana you have to let go of what you know and you have to be like a child.
I feel I know so much more than I did before and I understand things deeper, but I sure as hell will not hold onto what I have right now and say what I know is absolute truth .. I will not form a dogma around it and tell it to you, that this is the way things are…. I will present I as a next step on your path, but I’m not going to tell you that because I have realised that s soon as you do that your in ‘hell’.. You don’t progress , it’s like a dam on a river, you just dammed yourself ..maybe that’s how the word ‘dammed’ became a part of hell? Because your in hell when you dam the river up. You dammed it up by holding onto what you know , and thinking .. That’s it…. Well I released the dam and I started to progress.
I have to tell you something about religions, and this is true. I have met so many people in my life and when I was younger and into Christianity , a lot were catholic and I would try and talk to them about more in their lives ..Yet they wanted to hold onto what they believed in and I couldn’t understand why. My picture is so much clearer won’t you just get out of your fear and they would tell me that in the catholic church if you leave the church basically your going to hell and they were afraid to get out of their box, and I would say please trust in yourself get out of the box, but their fear was greater than what I was telling them and then I began to realise years later that, that was what I was doing too .
When I was 16 and I said I was leaving the church. I said I had to because if I stay in the church I am would be saying that this is what I believed and one of the beliefs of the church is that this is the only true church and now I realise this is not true… They say this is the fullness.. And I realise that’s not true so it wasn’t out of anger that I left the church it was out of my own statement to myself that I cannot belong to an organisation that I do not believe in anymore. One of the first things the church leader gave me back was fear.. You’ll never see your family again, that’s what he told me, beyond this life you will be un-see able to god , your never going to know god, your going to hell… I tried to explain to him that I already know more about god because of what I had experienced , more than I can even relate you and I tried to say.. You know what I can’t even relate it to you because you’ve never experienced it… he said.. What you experienced that is taking you away from the church is the devil!! I was 16!!!.. The same thing the Catholics say .. Same thing the Baptists tell you … See what people don’t realise is any institution , once people have formed an institution whether it is religion or toys r us … no embodied organised entity or religion wants to disappear . See what I discovered through my experience, the ramifications of it basically said I don’t need the church now to grow.. They can’t tolerate that, religions can’t tolerate that, so what each of them will do is throw fear at you to keep you in there in their religion.
This is why I told you in order to jump out of the whirlpool what we find ourselves in, you have to have a perfect faith and trust that god is not going to sever you from himself. Where is he going to put you anyway? Where is he going to put you? There is nowhere outside of him! See god is within you and all around you. Jesus said… ‘ I’m within the father and the father is within me’ and people had no idea what that meant, they interpreted it in any way they could, most of them did it in the physical world because they can’t see beyond their physical senses. All they see is the illusion of separation so they didn’t understand.
When I had the first experience I understood what Jesus was trying to say when he said.. ‘ I am within the father and the father is within me’…because I am right now in the universe and the universe is within me and there is no separation. Now I bring this to your attention because as soon as I was able to let go of what I believed I opened myself up to other things, I didn’t just let go of my religion and go to no religion, no spirituality, which is what a lot of people do and I think for them they are better to stay in their religion because at least they are reaching out for more there.. But I reached out for more genuinely , so I got more and I read the teachings of Buddha….. Did I become a Buddhist .. NO.. because I don’t want to jump into another Whirlpool or box, another dogma… But I read it and then I started to see the similarities of what the Buddha was teaching with what Christ was teaching.. When you get rid of all the dogmas that try to keep you trapped in some kind of religion, when you get rid of all the stuff that people have been throwing at you to keep you there, you start to see the core essence of what the mystics were teaching.. And I realised that if I had stayed in my whirlpool or box I would never have seen anything beyond what and where I was, I would never have read the teachings of Buddha and I would never have seen the profound similarities between what he was and what Christ was.. I would never have read the Bhagavad Gita which to me was one of the most spiritual books I have ever encountered that shows you what the deeper nature of reality is.. I would never have done it.. Now would I become a Hindu? NO … because Hindus hold onto their book and very few ever go to the teachings of Buddha.
Now I will tell you something else. Jesus was a Jew .. He owed a lot to the Jewish faith.. but did he hold onto it? NO….. he taught people more.. Did people call him a heretic? Most definitely … so much so he threatened the orthodoxy of his day to the point where they put him to death…Yet did he die? NO .. Neither will you. Was the Buddha considered a heretic?……. I have news for you the Buddha was considered a heretic because he came out of Hinduism, but how wonderful that he took the essence of Hinduism and added more to it, expanded the knowledge of who we are. Something with every religions we must do is to stop taking sides, you start taking sides and you end up with a holy war, so lost in ignorance that you don’t realise the people you are killing and hurting through the crusades, through the Islamic radicals etc.. they are killing themselves.
There is going to come a time in your eternal existence when you are going to wake up and you are going to realise that every thing you have done to everyone else you have been doing to yourself. When you return to a state of oneness you are going to feel the pain that you have given others as your own pain. That is why you need to love god with all your heart, might, mind and strength and love your neighbour as yourself. That’s why you need to know that what ever you do to the least of these my brother you have done to me. That’s what Christ was trying to say.
There is no separation, separation is an illusion. Separation is an illusion that we create so we can experience and know what it means to be ‘I am’ . I don’t know if that’s is all I wanted to say in this post. I want you all to know one thing and that is that all my posts are from my heart and my life lessons.
I ask my guide before I write a post to please help me express what it is that he has shown me and what I have learned. Help me to express it in a way that people will understand and relate to.
I hope I have done that.
Be strong live your life for who you are in knowing that you are god and god is you... Never get trapped in dogma to go on and on about other religions is being trapped it just shouts it out... plus ignoring it blaming others.... look past that and start with YOU.....The blame is nothing to do with your soul it is anothers ......................... stop living with other souls rubbish. Digging things up about others shows the spiritual path is not ready for you...look deeper.
Anyway that’s all I have to say in this post.
Love and peace to you all
Storm
