Post by chilledzee on Oct 26, 2011 16:17:24 GMT
I have just returned from a 'spur of the moment' trip to Salford Quays & have come back very refreshed & at peace, with myself. Something had drawn me there, today & I did not question it. When I arrived, the sun was shining brightly, the water was calm & a cooling breeze awoke my passion for being outside in the fresh air...instead of being at home which had been..up until now.. my self-inflicted prison.
I sat down, on a bench, overlooking the canal & right in front of me was the beautiful scene of the sun's rays flickering on the water. I have always looked at that visual as them being 1000's of fairies..dancing on top of the water & today was no exception. I sat watching them with 'applicable' songs playing through my earphones & for each 'fairy' I focused on, a different thought would come into my head. At first, my thoughts were those of sadness, confusion, self pity, guilt, frustration or/and anger. Yes, these feelings are known to all who have experienced a loss ...loss of a loved one, loss of job..infact a loss of any kind. My recent loss was that of someone I considered to be a friend. I hasten to add, that they have not passed over...they are still alive & kicking...the 'kicking' being directed at my arse, sadly (& painfully..ouch!). I guess the rejection, of the 'friendship' I could have given, was the hardest part to accept. Is that a selfish? Probably is, but we can all be guilty of that, can't we? A picture or a tone of a voice can disguise many things. A common example I can give you & I'm sure it's one you can all associate with, is... "How are you?"... "Fine, thanks". Hhmm..really??? The eyes are the windows to the soul, it has been said, but on asking the question...I can usually see the truth without the need of a reply. Then we have 'body language'. Yes, I do pick up on individual auras, but generally others are unable to see these, so more common signs are noticed ie: turning towards you or turning away; fidgeting; tense or relaxed. I am a contact person. I would never apologise for that...but at the same time, would never inflict that on others, if it was something they were not accustomed to giving or receiving in their life. I grew up where every neighbour was your friend. Our way of saying 'hi' was a hug & later... a hug on leaving (if there were hugs in between those times, it was a bonus..
).
Anyway, I have no regrets on any time spent with any one person, in my life. I do not beat myself up on events from the past & slap myself saying...'what was I thinking?'. Instead, I adopted a kinder question... 'what was I learning?'.
I would like to finish up with this one quote, I came across some time ago.. 'Respect people's feelings. Even if it does not mean anything to you, it could mean everything to them'.
Peace
Chilledzee xxxx (& hugs..)
I sat down, on a bench, overlooking the canal & right in front of me was the beautiful scene of the sun's rays flickering on the water. I have always looked at that visual as them being 1000's of fairies..dancing on top of the water & today was no exception. I sat watching them with 'applicable' songs playing through my earphones & for each 'fairy' I focused on, a different thought would come into my head. At first, my thoughts were those of sadness, confusion, self pity, guilt, frustration or/and anger. Yes, these feelings are known to all who have experienced a loss ...loss of a loved one, loss of job..infact a loss of any kind. My recent loss was that of someone I considered to be a friend. I hasten to add, that they have not passed over...they are still alive & kicking...the 'kicking' being directed at my arse, sadly (& painfully..ouch!). I guess the rejection, of the 'friendship' I could have given, was the hardest part to accept. Is that a selfish? Probably is, but we can all be guilty of that, can't we? A picture or a tone of a voice can disguise many things. A common example I can give you & I'm sure it's one you can all associate with, is... "How are you?"... "Fine, thanks". Hhmm..really??? The eyes are the windows to the soul, it has been said, but on asking the question...I can usually see the truth without the need of a reply. Then we have 'body language'. Yes, I do pick up on individual auras, but generally others are unable to see these, so more common signs are noticed ie: turning towards you or turning away; fidgeting; tense or relaxed. I am a contact person. I would never apologise for that...but at the same time, would never inflict that on others, if it was something they were not accustomed to giving or receiving in their life. I grew up where every neighbour was your friend. Our way of saying 'hi' was a hug & later... a hug on leaving (if there were hugs in between those times, it was a bonus..
).Anyway, I have no regrets on any time spent with any one person, in my life. I do not beat myself up on events from the past & slap myself saying...'what was I thinking?'. Instead, I adopted a kinder question... 'what was I learning?'.
I would like to finish up with this one quote, I came across some time ago.. 'Respect people's feelings. Even if it does not mean anything to you, it could mean everything to them'.
Peace
Chilledzee xxxx (& hugs..)
? Xanto?? Where did you read, from my thread or replies, that I have this huge amount of anger? You are so very wrong with your assumption. Also, I find the comparison made, to that of a stalker, very insulting! Since my last reply, the chapter has closed & I am the one who has done the 'running a mile'.... fact. 