The Highest Form Of Magic

[STORMDANCER]

I wanted to write a little bit more about my own story.. Not wanting to bore you but I think some of it may help some of you who are on a similar path. Also I would like to teach you things that I have come to realise are actually the highest forms of magic. In doing this I am also going to share with you some of the lower forms of magic ..Like in thought forms..I called thought forms high magic ..it is the highest but it is also the highest of the lowest forms if that makes any sense. There are forms of magic that are higher than that.

First of all I wanted to tell you that I believe if you are reading these posts, that you yourself, like me, are not better than anything else in creation . Don't assume I am saying that because nobody is better than anything else, and nobody is worse than anything else either. We are all made of the same stuff...But never the less their souls, fragments of the consciousness of all that is, which we are, who have been along a different journey than other souls, and are more evolved in certain understandings. I believe if you are reading this, be you a Kabbalist, a Wiccan , a Pagan or a Hermetic or a Shaman. I don't care what you call yourself.. I want you to know that I feel that you would not be reading this if you were not along this path previously either in this life or another. If you weren't you would probably be watching football or reading about daily news etc. You are interested in this because you have something inside of you that has been interested in it before and I believe you have probably practiced it before to a certain degree, and this is another step on your path, as it is mine.

I also want to say I am not a master or an enlightened one, although I have experienced brief moments of oneness, I have experienced that through meditation and it was a small taste of who I really am inside. I also want you to know that I am a reflection of you whether you believe it or not...Nothing exists outside of yourself, you are both the Macrocosm and microcosm of the universe, time and space are an illusion. I am a reflection of you as you are a reflection of me, that is why whatever you do to other parts of creation, whatever your journey, you have been doing it to yourself, and that is the principle of the concept of the highest form of magic.

I wanted to tell you a bit about my own journey. I have suffered from depression at times due to certain situations, not right now though, and for me I was very angry at my own self because I considered it a sign of weakness in my character which then I projected onto a weakness of my own soul. I was angry at myself because this...I have been told by different people I have encountered in my life and people along the mystical path as well, that I was mistaken in saying that it was a flaw in my character. It's not a flaw in my character, it is a part of my character, and it's not a permanent part of my character it is a part of my character that I am at right now...If that makes sense?...But never the less I have had things happen in my life because of feeling depressed that have bought me the most intensive amount of pain, and those moments of pain have turned out to be a blessing that I didn't perceive at the time. I am telling you this because I want you to know that I am not perfect. In this I started to realise that maybe it was the pain that I was going through that was teaching me something about myself....That when everything is going well in your life, you have nothing to challenge your thoughts and ideas of who you are, and one of the reasons you are in the physical world and you have forgotten your true self is for you to search out your true self and find it again, and in the process of searching out your true self you are creating things in the process, and that's how the universe creates and flows as a cycle......It is a cycle of knowing who you are, with oneness with all that is and being conscious of that oneness....and then falling back into the idea of separate differentiations of the ego and thinking the physical body is who you are.

I want to talk about he higher form of magic by continuing with my story.. so.....I told you a while back I had got so very down at one time in my life I had even thought of ending it, even to the point of setting a date. I have to tell you nobody on the outside world knew that I was going to do this. I was a nurse and I could go to work and still no one had any idea. My friends knew I was a bit down and going through a bad time because of something that had happened, but they had no idea I was going to end my life...because I could put on smile...I don't think this is necessarily a good quality, but it's part of my character. I can be very charismatic and I can hide things so... they had no idea. But I was determined and I was angry, and I was mostly angry at myself.

I have come to understand that 'god' is not outside of myself. There is nothing that makes me up or you up that is not part of 'god'.....I will come back to that concept in a second...but I want to tell you that this was something I had to understand mentally but I had not had enough experience with it to truly comprehend it....I was seeing myself as having flaws in my character and it came to me later on after this whole experience had happened....that the truth is......it was like, I don't know if it was my guide 'mabes' or my own self ...but as I was lying on the couch one day and thinking about what I was going to do etc....A question came to my mind......'Do you believe god is perfect?'.....and I believe that god and universal creation are the same to me.. That god is the source of all things even the source of my soul, it is my highest self...and of course I believe that the spirit and the force that makes up the universe is perfect...it's perfect...Then the idea came to me in my head......' Is there anything that makes you up that is not made of the source of all that is? Is there anything that makes you up that is not part of god? That is outside god?'........and no their isn't....So what does that mean about you and me?......... The truth is you are perfect...you are not born in sin, you are born in ignorance...Their is nothing that makes you up that is not outside of god/universe and not a part of god. You are perfect and the problem is you judge yourself...and that is why the great mystics including Jesus and other mystics say the first thing they will teach is 'don't judge'...Don't judge others and don't judge yourself, because those judgements are what you create in your mind as imperfections and you loose sight of the perfection of who you are.. as part of spirit of god/universe, so that's something we all share but not something we are all aware of...and something that I learned, I am not perfect....do I have perceived flaws...yes...but I perceive them as flaws, the universe/god doesn't...others may perceive them as flaws....are they flaws...no not in the literal sense...not in the absolute sense.

Anyway the highest form of magic that I learned...going back to the story lol......At this time I was angry and I had learnt lower forms of magic, lower forms of magic like candle magic etc....These are important to learn too and are steps along the path..I have learned candle magic and it is very successful for me.. I have been able to raise energy and focus for days and manifest things in my life very quickly...so candle magic does work ..I know I do digress a lot but things do come together in the end...so back to high magic....once more ..( I hear you say!)

I was determined I didn't want to live in this world anymore I was so muddled with negative emotions, all the practices I had, had with concentration, with controlling my emotions, they went out of the door. I just couldn't do it, I couldn't do anything and it was so frustrating because I had thought because of the lower nature of my own self I guess.. I had thought as I was so angry I would get someone back...I was feeling all the negative emotions and had felt almost the point like.. I know this may sound dramatic but a person who has learned how to control certain things.. when something reaches and tugs at the things that are most important to you, and you feel like your going too loose it...that is where you grow because you have the potential to focus yourself on that moment and maybe use some of the things you have learned for your own purposes and negativity....I didn't do anything like that when I was down...I just didn't and another reason I couldn't do anything was because i couldn't concentrate , I couldn't sleep, I was having a terrible time and I knew I was going to kill myself anyway.. so that's what I thought.

It was a horrible time in my life and my guide later told me this....after this was all over. I managed to get myself out of it and am still ok and working on things but...My guide came to me at that time and I knew I was going to be ok, but he said...' does it still hurt?'...and I got angry at my guide.. Here I was wanting help and he keeps coming up with these stupid sentences like ' who are you' and ' does it still hurt!' and the anger welled up inside of me and he didn't say this but as i was contemplating a lot of these thoughts came into my mind and I know they are not from myself.. they are higher thoughts that help me to understand things. .I realised then that if this had not happened to me, If I had not created this circumstance, which I did create out of my subconscious thoughts, out of my circumstances, I was not a victim. This is I guess something I had chosen at a higher level to put myself through.. If I had not done this, I would not have felt the ultimate pain.. If I had lost my car etc that would have been painful etc, But to be hurt by the ones I loved was my life because they were my heart....and that's what it took is to receive the ultimate pain, because with your pain that is how you grow.. and part of that is also to feel the ultimate anger and the ultimate negativity because then you can take what you have learned and you can decide to abuse it or you can decide to control it, and I had passed that, bearly passed that test , but I did...and it didn't come to my understanding until after it was all over. I know that my guide could have told me all this and what was going on, but if he had told me this it would have influenced my choices and it wouldn’t have come from me.

I want to teach you the highest form of magic now....and this is what I have to learn for the rest of my life because it still hurts.

The highest form of magic is to realise that magic is unnecessary...To realise that the universe is perfect. The highest form of magic is acceptance and relinquishment of your own desires, and to see the perfection even in the midst of negativity.. and you cannot realise that higher form of magic unless you are immersed in the highest form of pain.

Now my pain does not go away.. sometimes it settles, but it comes to the surface. But that's how I am growing.. If the pain went away then it would not continue to help me and Buddhists will tell you that and the masters will tell you that.....they will tell you that....If I had lost my legs in an accident that would have been a tremendous amount of pain but I would have got over it.. Loosing my loved ones, My Child is something that in this life I will never get over...Finally I have just come to acceptance.. Have I come to relinquish the pain I had....No...But I use it every day because it is teaching me the highest form of magic.

The highest form of magic is realising that everything is perfect and to realise to accept it and to realise that the lower forms of magic such as creating thought form, candle magic etc which are all steps on the path are really unnecessary...The masters will never do things to manipulate the environment or to change the circumstances that are in the universe. Acceptance is the highest form of magic and when you have reached the highest state of magic you realise that magic is not necessary....And so that is something I am learning right now. That is the goal of where you want to go to...and if you are not at that state it's ok because those are steps along te path.

I have said enough for today and I am so sorry this has been a long post but it is something that I needed to write as it is my path and where I am....I will tell you this though...I am Not a guru, or a saint, I am not an enlightened one, but I have come to realise that the state of enlightenment is a knowledge of your oneness and true self with all that is and it is not out of your reach...I used to think that enlightenment was some goal out in the future, and when I become enlightened that somehow I am going to change, that somehow I would become this 'Gandalf the White' ..lol...or some kind of character like that....enlightenment is not like that....enlightenment is like an understanding of peace and acceptance and knowing who you are and it brings the greatest amount of serenity even in the greatest amount of pain...There is an old Chinese Buddhist saying that says:

'Before enlightenment you chop wood..( meaning you work)...After enlightenment you chop wood'

You have not changed you just realise your true self...Enlightenment is the highest form of magic.. And that is what I wanted to share with you today.

Peace and Love

Storm xxx

[zanyzee]

My dear Storm..I too have experienced similar scenarios & my attempt at the taking of my own life, after the passing of my mum, was interrupted by a concerned neighbour & medical staff in a hospital. Yes, I have kicked myself ever since, for my selfish act, as my mum had no choice given to her, but I did. Many years have passed, since that day & I have not once considered repeating it...for me it will never be an option. For any losses, in my life...regardless of how small or big... the 'neutral zone' is where I escape to.
After a serious accident, some years ago, my personal loss was that of a friend & my left hand. Months later, I visited friends of mine who shared a house overlooking the beach & the River Forth in Scotland. I would spend hours walking on the sand, skimming stones over the water & looking out onto the horizon. I remember the need for wanting to be alone, but not knowing the reason why. I was aware my life was changing,but I had no idea of direction. I was not asking questions nor searching for answers. I felt slightly guilty at not being able to justify my 'aloneness' to others, however I was aware I needed that time out. I now understand I was in the neutral zone at that time as William Bridges once wrote... "In the apparently aimless activity of our time alone we are doing important inner business."
Although I have shared this as my experience, it should be noted that my choice of escape/aloneless might not be the choice of another. I grew up in a small town beside the sea & have many happy memories from that period of my life. The beach, sea & countryside has always been something of a comfort zone for me, but it is important to add that a 'neutral zone' isa state of mind & can be present in your own room, in the garden, in the park...infact anywhere.
As you see, I too can sway onto different areas.. lol so, in my attempt to bring it back, I'll jump back in & begin by saying......
I feel there are many times we explore our memories & blow the dust of old feelings & emotions. Sometimes trips down memory lane can be painful, but are journey back in time & to present day help us understand 'us'. Our new found wealth of information, re-ourselves, gives us a stronger foundation for us to embark upon a new beginning. The beginning is not always obvious, at the start...infact, the direction ahead can be obscure at times & therefore it can be a process that requires patience & understanding.
Those who have successfully persued their goal and/or renewed their once lost self-esteem, reflect on patterns that have emerged throughout this inner process. Through certain stages, in their journey, one can experience depths of despair, stress & confusion that can frighten even the strongest of hearts... however.... good or bad... 'oneness' is a worthy goal ....

Zanyzee xxxx

[STORMDANCER]

Zanyzee your post has really touched my heart I am like you an open book to all ..I write and give my feelings and thoughts as you do..Thankyou for sharing your personal life lessons. I feel this may help because it was something that helped me. xxxx

A time comes in your life when you finally get it... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out -

ENOUGH!

Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change... or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that neither of you is Prince Charming or Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you... and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions. And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself... and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself... and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the junk you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, how much you should weigh, what you should wear, what you should do for a living, how much money you should make, what you should drive, how and where you should live, whom you should marry, the importance of having and raising children, and what you owe your parents, family, and friends.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with ... and in the process you learn to go with your instincts.

You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing.

You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away.

You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. And you learn that alone does not mean lonely. You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.

You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK...and that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things you want and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less. And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect.

You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise. You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve... and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone... and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is the greatest robber baron of all: FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God/dess isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

Finally, with courage in your heart and God/dess by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.

Peace and Love

Storm xxxx